I'm not upset at all about what happened at this event, because it made me realise something important. It made me realise that I should think about myself in a much more respectfull way. I'm not some joker that will perform a trick when it is convenient to others. I'm Yoshi Livo who makes civil disobedience into a form of art, with a very serious message about how our sences are being fooled on a daily basis by mainstream media to let us think we need to enjoy the world to shit with overconsumption, just for our own egoistic pleasure. Don't get me wrong, everybody can have fun, but our current monetairy system of endless debt does not care about the restrictions our planet has. We can't produce more ivory if we print extra cash, to name just one example of how we are depleting our resources.
Untill today I've seen myself as a pawn, handy to sacrafice for a better position or a tactical play. I know my message will stay the same, but a pawn has this option that no other piece on the chessboard has, it can be promoted and gain more respect. In order for that to happen it needs to travel all across the chessboard, dodge all kind of hazards and yes, maybe be lucky that the opponent might undervalue his presence and not take the pawn out when he has the chance. But if this pawn makes it all the way across it will evolve in the most powerfull piece on the board and change the outcome of that chessgame. I used to feel as if I've traveled a long way and am in the position where promotion is in sight, but by now I got it, this promotion has already taken place with the creation of Yoshi Livo, I just need to look in the mirror to convince myself I'm not a pawn anymore and start to act like the promoted piece I've become. This means I should demand respect at the right time. I hope I will never become a narcisitic piece of shit that does not care about others, but I should definately take care of the way how I present myself to others.
Well, I've got about 2 weeks to figure out how I'm going to do that, but maybe I already took care of it. You see, I've been staying in Serbia for allmost 2 months now and in that time I met this lovely lady who is just crazy enough to tolerate me. I might just have found the perfect way how to spend my energy on something different then crypto, If I can find a better way to spend my time it becomes more valuable by itself. I really like the position I have today. No obligations and free to do what I want, nobody I have to take into account, sometimes I think I'm crazy for chasing my goals and give up all that freedom. Just cash it out and live a peacefull life somewhere, but I know that when EFL or Liberland will become a success I already made too much history to be able to stay hidden forever and I can be honoust to myself, I know I will like to get recognition for my ideas and I will love talking about Satoshism, Satoshischool, Liberland or YCLO for the rest of my life.
This is an evolving story so time will tell what will happen next, if this documentary that will be shown on dutch national tv, channel2 on 10th of may will make the difference for example. For now I enjoy life to the full. For the first time in a long time I can be happy about who I've become and it feels great, let these next two weeks last forever, I won't complain.